Well, if you follow me on instagram, you saw this morning that our lives are about to change...in a real big way ;)
Our first little Rosebud will be arriving this Fall, and I seriously don't know if we've ever been more thrilled about anything in our entire lives. Keeping this secret the last 3 months has been the HARDEST THING OF MY LIFE! Actually, the endless puking has been, but secret keeping has been a close 2nd. ;)
Because i've been so absent here on the blog the last 12 weeks, I thought i'd fill you in on what has been goin' down...
February 23rd, 2015, I peed on the stick like I had seriously 1402 times before, but this time I knew it was going to be negative. I was starting to feel a little hopeless, and I knew that if I just told myself it would be negative, it would hurt a little less when it was.
I started with one of those cheap tests you see in the check-out at Walmart for 88 cents (I had quite the pregnancy test stock-up from the months prior) and did my business, put it on the back of the toilet, and started getting ready for work.
I had always dreamed of telling Jake some fun and exciting way that he was going to be a Dad, but after one too many times dealing with a negative on my own, Jake made me PROMISE I wouldn't take a test unless he was right there with me. (well, you know...outside the bathroom door)
He looked at the test in the dark bathroom, didn't see the second line and came over and kissed me and said, "i'm so sorry. maybe next month."
As much as I had prepared myself for another negative, I seriously started bawling right then and there. I walked over to the bathroom to throw the test away and..bam. Second line. I said "um, Jake. There is a 2nd line here" and he screamed "NO WAY!" but by now I was shaking and crying and my emotions were so out of control all I could do was scream "GO BUY ANOTHER TEST AT WALMART!" so, like a good husband, he strolled on into Walmart at 6:00 AM and bought a pack of pregnancy tests and walked his way out ;) He said that was worse than buying tampons.
The first test we took was the middle one, very faint, so easy to see why Jake would miss it, the second was the bottom, and that last test is at the top. After 3 different brands of tests, and 3 positives, it started to sink in, we might actually be having a baby. :)
The next morning the digital test made it feel even more real, and we went to the doctor for some blood work to confirm...we were knocked up!
We told our families at about 5 weeks. We put Kaedyn in this T-Shirt to see how long it would take my family to notice, it took way longer than expected but it was the best reaction when they finally got it!
We were meeting Jake's parents in Kansas City the following weekend and gave them these little onesies as a surprise, and there were tears ALL around! It was such a fun reaction. I am not in control of my emotions and just thinking about it brings a tear ;)
We got to have our first Ultrasound right after 8 weeks when this little one gave us a scare and I started bleeding/cramping. We headed straight to the emergency room for the scariest few hours of my life. Luckily all was fine with our little one, and they found a cyst on my left ovary that was what caused the cramping.
We had an appointment with our OB the following Monday and everything was still looking great and this little guy/gal was measuring ahead!
Trying to keep a pregnancy under-wraps is no joke when you're an over-sharer by nature like myself. We told almost all of our friends/family at 10 weeks when we were back home for the best wedding week ever, and I just got a little creative with trying to be sneaky ;)
My beverage of choice the entire trip while my gals were knockin' back the cold coors light. ;) ohmygosh that makes me salivate.
Bree made me hold her drink while she gave baby a little extra lovin' ;)
Pregnancy has been nothing like I thought it would be. I thought I would be that chalk boardin', gender reveal party plannin', baby shoppin' son of a gun I had always imagined myself being, but the truth is, i've spent a lot of time with my head in the toilet or taking a nap ;) Now that we're safely in the 2nd trimester, I know the light is near and i'm just getting so stinking EXCITED to welcome this tiny little human into our home!
I've spent my entire life wanting to be a mother, so having this actually happen is very surreal. We have a little home-doppler that we can listen to baby's heartbeat on and it feels like my walkie-talkie to communicate with our plum. It's seriously amazing the overwhelming love you feel the second you see or hear that little heartbeat. I can't wait for this bump to stop looking like I ate one too many burritos, and to feel this little sweetie movin and groovin in there!
This is the biggest blessing in the entire world to Jake and I, and i'm so humbled by your lovin' and prayers during the next 6 months. Bring on the stretchy pants, nursery decor, and parenting books!
Thank you from the bottom of all 3 of our hearts (4 if you count Axy-boy!)
Until Next Time,